***
(4:10)

my
mind
is all
twisted

up.


i don’t know where i’m goin’


but my
heart
is all
filled

up.


i wonder if that’s showin’



***
(5:49)

let’s hear it again
for the delirious
let’s hear it again
for the delirious

lets hear it for the ones
on the side
lets hear it for the ones
who feel they have to hide

let’s hear it
for you and me…
…lost up a tree

let’s hear it again
for the delirious
let’s hear it again
for the delirious
let’s hear it again
for the ones who never win
let’s hear it again
for the delirious



***
“these little things” (9:10)

please don’t lock the bottom lock when you go
cause the key to the door
it don’t work to good no more
and i’ll be sure to close it more quietly when i leave
so i don’t disturb you
in the middle of your well earned sleep

but it’s alright if we forget sometimes
we’re both just trying to make each other feel fine
take the time to listen face to face
these little things can change your day

i’ll scratch your back - get the spot
while you scratch my arm
wish i could you feel better
when everything’s hard
and i’ll always kiss you before i leave
and make sure the puppy goes out to pee
and before i get home would you mind
packing a bowl for me?

but it’s alright if we forget sometimes
we’re both just trying to make each other feel fine
take the time to listen face to face
these little things can change your day



***
“sappy.wav” (13:15)

what time is it?
i know i heard a clock
but i could not count the chimes

what day is it?
lost track a while back
when i started crying

here alone
solitary confinement is home
was there anything before it?

things can get comfortable
when you’re sad
but i no longer
wanna settle for that.

what time is it?
just looked at my phone
but the numbers were all askew

what day is it?
i wanna remember this
the first time i saw you

i never felt so safe before
i never knew what i never had
before i gave you the key to my door

no longer alone
lets make a commitment to build a home
i’ve never felt so safe before

things can get comfortable
when you’re happy
and i’m no longer
afraid of being sappy



***
“kinda wanna cut my hair” (16:50)

well i’ve got no place to go
if you’re not there
but would you stick around
if i cut off all my hair

cause i know you like it long
and i know you think it’s beautiful
yeah i know you like it long
and i know you think it’s beautiful

but it’s getting kind of hot
and it’s getting kinda annoying
when i wake up in the morning
and it’s in knots - so annoying
you wanna braid it, curl it
twirl it in your fingers
oh you’re so… cute

and i know you like it long
and i know you think it’s beautiful
yeah i know you like it long
and i know you think it’s beautiful

but to be honest
i still kinda wanna cut my hair



***
“the final words of the earth” (19:00)

the evening brings an ending
but the morning is holy.
the moon reflects
waits patiently for the sun.

i used to watch them dancing, gently
following their rhythm
i remember trees climbing to reach them

but now i can not look up
and i weep for the uninspired grief
of the dim dreamers
whose wonders were shrouded
by incandescence

i’m sorry, but the end is here
you’ve gone to far
you’ve insulated me with fear
all the tragic desperation
that i’ve witnessed
have come to nothing
but a cosmic sickness

if you do not know what it is you do
let me tell something to you—



***
“trashcan poetry” (21:05)

who knows the fire from the smoke
and who can tell you when to breath
and when you’re gonna choke

i tried to write a song
like squeezing blood from a stone
but it came out all wrong —
my motivations were a groan

but then something happened
my synopses (synapses) were a flame
and thats when they came to me
the words of a dear friend

i started to feel depressed
but you saved me from the wreck

i sit smoldering
and i weep with the best
and my knee just gave in
again in the street

stumbled but did not fall
and tried to fly
but no one can fly out here
nothing will ever be simple



***
“it’s love (outside the lines)” (24:05)

it’s love to see
it’s love to waste the day with you
it’s love to hear you
it’s love to harmonize with you

i never knew what i could do
you’ve got me coloring out of the lines
but now i know just where to go
anywhere that’s by your side

it’s love to be there
it’s love to be the one to care
it’s love to remind you
every day that i’m more
and more in love with you

i never knew what i could do
you’ve got me coloring out of the lines
but now i know just where to go
anywhere that’s by your side



***
“where my heart wants you to be” (26:40)

i’m not sad
about being alone
you won’t hear me moan
or groan about it

i’m not sad
cause you said “i have to leave”
i’ll just need some time to grieve about it
baby, i didn’t want to lose you
but did i ever really have you to lose?
found my troubles in a bottle
just double over ’til i’m hollow

but i’m not sad
just a little run down
just a little unwound about

baby, somebody’s been here before
and somebody else helped lock the door
i know where my heart wants you to be
in a place where you can want me
baby, i didn’t want to lose you
but did i ever really have you to lose?
found my troubles in a bottle
just double over ’til i’m hollow

but i’m not sad



***
“it’s okay” (29:15)

was i a better friend than a lover
when i needed one too
we stayed up all night
talking our sorrows through

i’m growing callous i guess
seems like there’s nothing
going on in my chest
and by the time this is through
i’ll have lost the rest.

was i a better lover than a friend
when the tides rolled in
and my mind played
tricks on me again

so tamely i’ll crawl away
a necessary
though unfortunate fate
no need to fight
it’s all done, it’s alright, it’s too late.

no need
to fight
it’s all done
it’s alright
it’s too late…



***
(32:20)

i’m lost
and i don’t know
when it happened

was it when i was young
and still dreamin’
and nights were a
canvas for creating
beautiful new things
even if they were
only memories

when i didn’t scream
at my friends
and family
over drinks

and the light was
a possible outcome

there was hope and
a chance for redemption

now i’m lost
cracked
limping
forward



***
“i’m no fun anymore” (34:20)

i don’t really wanna go
and i don’t wanna
talk on the phone
i kinda just wanna stay home
and cry alone

but i know
my friends miss me
and i miss them
but i can’t tell them
when i lost my grin

i’m no fun anymore
i’m no fun anymore
i’m no fun anymore
i’m no fun anymore



***
“thought i might burn out” (40:13)

am i melting away
on my brow, in my eyes
am i showing my age?

well i thought i might burn out
but this feels much more like a thaw
and now writing words feels like
pulling the teeth from my jaw

rip my fingers on
the strings i left for dead
forget every word i ever said
i thought i might burn out
but it seems i’m melting instead